In our ultimate search for happiness, we often forget that we need to love ourselves, before we can love anyone else. I always tell my friends: You need to learn to love yourself, just the way you are, with all your flaws and weaknesses. This is what the beautiful poem Laughing Hearts by Charles Bukowski speaks to me about.
Your life is your life
Don’t let it be clubbed into dark submission.
Be on the watch.
There are ways out.
There is a light somewhere.
It may not be much light but
It beats the darkness.
Be on the watch.
The gods will offer you chances.
You can’t beat death but
You can beat death in life, sometimes.
more often you learn to do it,
The more light there will be.
Your life is your life.
Know it while you have it.
You are marvellous
The gods wait to delight
“The Laughing Heart” Charles Bukowski
Charles Bukowski has always been one of my favorite poets. I love his poems as much as his ability make fun of his dysfunctional lifestyle, his drunkenness and womanizing ways with a healthy dose of self–irony, instead of wallowing in self-loath.
His poem “The Laughing Heart” has always whispered to me louder than all the people shouting to me, trying to push me here or there, making choices for me thinking they knew better to which direction I should head and how I should live my life.
Just The Way You Are
Your life is your life and nobody else’s. Don’t let anyone tell you what you suppose to do. If you listen to your own heart, you can’t go wrong, you are good just the way you are!
Your know deep inside that you should be allowed to make your own mistakes, because it is you who has to live with the consequences. You are the one who has to just drag yourself from one day to an other without really living at all.
You have been pushed into the corner, denied the possibility to make your own choices and live by them. Your are standing your back against the wall and you you feel the urge to escape, but are clueless how to break free.
Picture in your head that somewhere in this world there is a street that bears your name. Now imagine that it is up to you to turn the sign until it points into the direction that you want to take.
If you are unsure to which direction to point it at, test it out. Don’t sit and wait for someone else to tell you what to do or a divine intervention to push you onto the right path. You will end up getting stuck in the same old rut.
Take a peek around the corner and test the waters with your toe tips, the water will appear cold at first because of the chance in temperature.
Sit and wait for a moment, wait for your body to adjust. If the temperature becomes bearable after few minutes, jump in the deep end, feet first.
Do not hold back, go in all the way. Remember that most of the time, it’s possible to turn back if we don’t like the direction our life is taking. If it leads us into the darkness instead of light.
There is always a way out and you are heading towards it! You can already see some light in the end of a dark tunnel, that’s why you started your journey in the first place!
Sometimes the chance comes easily, naturally like it would always have been this way. Other times we just have to travel a longer distance that we thought to get there.
Imagine that you are standing at the short of a lake. The sun is setting and you are staring at the amazing display of colors. They blend into the clouds and the water is reflecting them playfully. The beach in front of you appears black and colorless, the distant horizon is filled with deep shadows.
The closer you look, the brighter the colors appear. You are amazed by the shapes the clouds are forming, how prominent the orange and red colors have become! All the shadows and the darkness, which filled half of your vision seem to have disappeared into the gorgeous display of beauty.
Look again. This time even closer. You notice that the sky is on fire and the sea has turned into liquid gold. You suddenly notice the sailing boat that appeared from out of nowhere and has taken a central stage in this display of beauty. You feel jealous of the view the people on the deck are having right now.
Now imagine you would swim across the lake to that sailboat. You would climb aboard and stand on the deck watching the burning golden show of light straight in front of you. It’s so bright that you feel it burning your skin.
Wasn’t it worth the final push, even if you almost drowned out of exhaustion, to get there in time, before the sun set into the horizon, before the darkness closed in and surrounded you.
You Are Marvelous Just The Way You Are
Smile, look yourself in the mirror. See the difference it makes. How it softens your face and softens out the wrinkles. See that light shining in your eyes? That off feeling of peace in your heart? It’s called happiness and I bet it’s there to stay.
Look back to your journey taking delight in the things you learned on your way. Think about how you got up every time you fell and continued instead of giving up and returning where you came from. Your heart aches remembering all the people you met on your journey.
Some held your hand, made your heart skip a beat and put a twinkle in your eyes. Others pushed you to the side, shouted insults at you in their hurry to get ahead. Some stayed with you walking quietly by your side, becoming a part of yourself.
Be proud of yourself and of your accomplishment. You prevailed and lived to tell the tale. You beat the odds, you managed what most people are never be able to do. You are on your way to happiness.
It’s never too late, there is always enough time to reach for the shore, always adequate strength for those final meters across the water, to become what you want to be, to get where the Gods will delight in you.
And once you get there, you can be the guiding light for the others. After all you have made it and taken control of your own life, made the chance for better and learned to love yourself, just the way you are.
Like a lighthouse standing tall at the shore, shining it’s loving gentle beam to the ones who still struggle in the darkness, stumbling over stones and branches on their struggle to reach the shore. Watching over the beautiful lake, taking delight in being able to help others to reach the shore and lead them on their final meters into the golden light.
ॐ Love and Light,